The First Time

I was sitting on my porch drinking a glass of wine. It wasn't quiet cause my neighbors were having a party. I was enjoying watching their drunk asses leave. They were wobbly, loud and vulgar.

I get a text from the X saying he wants to come kiss the kids goodnight. Wtf its 10:40pm. I roll my eyes. Send back "OK". He must have been around the corner: 10:42 he pulls up, happy, probably high... kisses the kids. I'm still on the porch wine in hand. I say smiling just trying to make conversation, "whats up, with the drive by visit" X says, "I gotta go I got a house full of people" I say, "oh is she there?" ("She" refers to the young hood rat he has decided is a "breath of fresh air")

Lolita, you struck a nerve there because that unleashed the fury!!!!

X--- Yes, she is! what! do you want me to lie to you?! You and I are not together!! We will never get back together, ever!!! My friends don't even want us back together, they don't like you!! I knew I should have never come over here. I hate you! You fucked up my life! I just heard about you on facebook with  a dude!!!

Me -- "Uhhh what are you talking about! Calm down!!!" - I'm trying to stop his drunk, high ass from driving so mad and inebriated.

I'm standing on the passenger side of the car. I say "X, unlock the door""what is wrong with you"

X-  I'm about to call my mother, no I'ma call the police. I'm bout to back up, Don't make me take the rear view mirror of this car!!!! You selfish bitch,  just let me leave!!! 


10:50pm-- I'm back on the porch with my wine.

I'm confused, How did it get so bad so fast. I'm convinced that he has to force a fight with me in order to justify his choices. He needs to constantly remind him self that i am bad person in order to feel better about his choice to leave me... Hang on ladies and gentlemen... this is only 10 mins in the the life of my ex husband sucks!!!